At the age of 17, Olivia Taglioli
was sexually abused during healing sessions
by Guru Dev Singh - master of Sat Nam Rasayan
Olivia was forced to keep quiet by her mom, Guru Dev Singh and the overall community ethos.
She wants this interview because: It is very important for me to share my story today so I can honor my 16- and 17-year old self that did not receive the proper recognition at that time.
Process of self healing
I saw how the events that occured in my life
are not going to be overcome
other then in the terms of growth.
First Abuse - Summer 1996
He started fondling my right breast.I was completely in a freeze stage.
Olivia realizes that he started grooming her when she was 13.
She explains how Guru Dev continuues to use 'healing language' to frame what he is doing.
The abuse goes on for about a year.
Olivia travels with the 'entourage' of GuruDev and has regularly sexual encounters with him.
About the Sat Nam Rasayan world:
There was this great luminous charming facade
that was appealing to many people ...
Olivia questions her mom for the first time about GuruDev ...
Abuse at the Reman festival in India while GD's family was there ...
He had sex with me right there and then in his hotel room where he slept with his wife and one of his kids.
I did not have the time to just say 'back off' ...
And then moments later I had to sit down with everybody at the dinner table and put what kind of face on?
When Olivia is 19 she questions her mother again about GuruDev, finds out he practices 'Advanced Sat Nam Rasayan' with her mother, which means sexual intercourse.
Olivia tells her mom there and then how GuruDev abused her all this time under the cover of healing sessions. Her mother freezes at that point.
Olivia enters a psychotic state for a while ...
Olivia follows her mom to the yoga festival.
She sleeps with GuruDev one night and accepts his proposal to move to the ashram of Amsterdam for a while.
Olivia was sent to the ashram in Amsterdam where she started a relationship. Yogi Bhajan was informed that Olivia and her boyfriend
were having sex before marriage.
When the young couple met Yogi Bhajan in Rome, he SCREAMED at her.
She had to ask her boyfriend to marry her. She felt overwhelmed.
Olivia and her husband move to San Diego.
Olivia has a very hard time because there is no one to talk to and the relationship with her mother in law,
who is a GuruDev devotee, is not good at all.