Transcript Gursant This is the handgun I used when I was on guard duty with Yogi Bhajan? That was back in the eighties. I also have a gallery. I probably have the biggest collection of Yogi Bhajan's so-called art. If you want to call it that. Gursant As you can see their drawings of phalluses. A woman here in the center. And then he write the word power here. I think it's really indicative of how abusive he was. He's got God written. Narrator Kundalini yoga is notorious for being a highly intense form of yoga. And for more than four decades, it has been dominated by the name of one, man. This movement, 3H0, the healthy happy holy organization, currently has 30,000 devoted followers worldwide. They continue to promote their leader's teachings. His healthy lifestyle and no drugs message made him popular amongst presidents and people of influence. Dharma He spoke with a Pope. This was the power of Yogi Bhajan everywhere he went. Not one president didn't bow to him. They looked like children in front of him. Narrator New allegations are emerging, revealing a dark secret inside the organization and pitting one generation against the next. Yogi Bhajan I finished my work. How's your sex life? Is she sexy? Satpavan I was sexually abused by Yogi Bhajan. He gave me a wedding ring and I was his youngest wife. I was his most innocent wife. He'd call me the Virgin Queen. Guru Fatha Yogi Bhajan Ñ I've never seen him as an abusive person. I don't believe people who make the allegations. Nadine I wanted to speak today because I can finally come out of the closet as it were. This story's been a long time hidden. There's so many people who don't believe in us and that he did anything wrong. I am a hundred percent a believer that 3HO is a cult. Gursant I haven't been over here in years. There are a lot of these 3HO people, Yogi Bhajan followers in this neighborhood here. That's Yogi Bhajan's ranch entrance. Well, one of the entrances. That dome is part of that ranch. Yogi Bhajan used to lecture there. Narrator Behind these gates lies the 20-acre compound of 3HO founder, Yogi Bhajan. He built his headquarters back in the 1970s. Although he died in 2004, he was survived by 3H0 and a community that continues to revere him. A memorial in his honor, erected by the governor of New Mexico, still stands today. Gursant I was around Yogi Bhajan for about 30 years. Narrator But in recent years, members of his inner circle have broken ranks to describe the troubling events they witnessed behind closed doors. Gursant I did the guard duty and I would take him in the middle of the night up to different residences. And he would be dressed just in his underwear and a shawl. I started to look deeper into what was really going on. And I was really angry. My idea is that I want to remove that Yogi Bhajan Memorial highway sign. He had women around him all the time, giving him massages, you know, sleeping in the same room with him. There was no criticism of Yogi Bhajan. Narrator However, in the eyes of the first wave of believers, Yogi Bhajan can do no wrong. Guru Fatha I think Yogi Bhajan was a person of great purpose that came to set up a yoga program. Tej They kind of yoga that Yogi Bhajan taught is basically "get high" yoga. His was doing this to stimulate your nervous system, like raise your arms up for three minutes and do long, heavy, deep breathing. Well, if you do that, you're going to kind of get stoned. Narrator Yogi Bhajan's physical yoga practice was rooted in spiritual teachings taken from Sikhism. Dharma He made tremendous contributions to the Sikh culture, which nobody ever heard of practically outside of India before he came here, and to the yoga culture. Narrator Those who came to follow the physical and spiritual sides of 3H0 often stayed for Yogi Bhajan himself, who seemed equally devoted to them. Pamela Yogi Bhajan called me Premka. The names had spiritual meanings. He said it meant the love of God. I grew up in Seattle there was a lot of religion in my family. When I was 21, I arrived in Los Angeles, happy to leave my entire past behind and start over again. I was alone in a very big new environment. I had learned that Yogi Bhajan was teaching yoga classes. I was looking for Eastern philosophy, Eastern thought. And I was looking for a teacher that could tell me what I was supposed to do. When I came into class with Yogi Bhajan it was full of this whole entire hippie commune that had come from New Mexico. Narrator When Yogi Bhajan comes to Southern California in the late 1960s, revolution is in the air. Guru Fatha We were the free love generation. Tej We were looking for something that was different than the kind of repressed living in the fifties. Pamela It was kind of a free love movement. I was caught up like everybody else in my generation in the Vietnam war protests. Tej There was a lot of turmoil at the time with the Vietnam war draft resistors and deserters, we were saying, we've got to find an alternative to the current status quo. The sixties was an expansion of awareness. People were hungry to find out what makes us. There was the music. It was the aliveliness of sexual experimentation and drugs. There was a sense of what's life about? What are we doing together? This thirst for change creates a spiritual gold rush. As gurus flooded into America from abroad to minister the biggest influencers at the day, Yogi Bhajan comes along. Along with, you know, there were probably 20 or 30 major teachers from the east and they bring this kind of cultural wisdom. Again, this is early seventies. We didn't have websites that give this information on these teachers. We weren't inoculated against someone who knew something about life that we didn't. Pamela I saw Yogi Bhajan standing in the back of the room, this tall, incredibly good-looking man in a bright pink turban. All of a sudden I saw this purple aura around his head and I keep blinking my eyes and it didn't go away. It impacted me in terms of this live spiritual teacher. Yogi just kept pulling me in to activities with him. What was most enticing was his interest and his curiosity about me. As I kept taking more and more administrative responsibility, he created a title of secretary general for me. Narrator With Pamela's help, 3H0 becomes an official religious organization. And as more yogis joined, Bhajan starts to issue them with holy names and positions. Dharma My role was Yogi Bhajan's driver and confidant. One day I went to the yoga class and we chanted "Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo" to start the class. The moment I chanted "Ong Namo" I saw the universe. I saw so many things when I chanted, and I heard "I'm home, I'm home, I'm home." And I saw him, and I was like, Wow. Guru Fatha He gave me a job to write his biography. So he gave me a title as a Messenger from the Guru's house. And the rest was on me. He wanted people to go out and he said, I'm not creating students, I'm creating teachers. Pamela People would take a couple weeks of training and then he would send them out elsewhere in the country and say, "Go. Go teach kundalini yoga and open an ashram." I was the head of an ashram for 15 years. It started with simply putting posters up to teach kundalini yoga. People would show up for class, 10 or 15 of them. Then there was this urge that we wanted to live in the same neighborhood or the same house. And that led to, "Let's buy a house." And it became an ashram. Pamela He actually had a letter go out suggesting people put their houses and their ashrams in the name of the organization. This would help them with property taxes and such. And it would be held for the future generations. Dharma 3H0 was growing, growing, growing the whole time. It went from tens of thousands, to 50,000, to 100,000. Narrator This explosive growth transforms 3HO from a small tribe into a national movement. The momentum brings a constant stream of leaders into the fold. Guru Fatha Yogi Bhajan was empowering our imaginations and saying, "Imagine. Work towards a new tomorrow. Work towards a healthy, happy, holy culture." Yogi Bhajan taught us to get up at 4:00 in the morning, to be vegetarian, no alcohol, no drugs, keep ourselves chaste. Tej He had a thousand things to say about everything: how to sleep, what direction to face, what clothes to wear, when you wear your hair up in a rishi knot it's good for your electromagnetic field. In order to become better, 80% of the marriages were arranged. Guru Fatha There would be a course, and he would line up all unmarried men on one wall and all the unmarried women on the other. And he just matched them up, and said, "You marry you." Narrator From the marriages arranged by Yogi Bhajan children started being born into 3HO. Nadine The first generation chose to become part of 3HO and told the second generation, "This is what you have to do." And the second generation had no choice unless we were going to run away, but we had no choice. Guru Fatha I have no complaints because he made us hippies into something different. Tej We lived a pretty clean lifestyle. We lived together. We raised our kids together. It was exactly what it said Ñ healthy, happy, and holy. And that's why it was very difficult to leave. Pamela I remember that there was a point and he said to me, "Premka, your faith must be so perfect that if I asked you to kill someone, you will just do it." Dharma Now, here is the entrance, Guru Ram Das Estates. This is where he lived for five years of his life. He lived in that room at the end. He slept in here. He had one attendant every night to attend him. He got animals and put them on the property to make it for children, just to be like a place that's natural, and not just a whole American house in the suburban division. This was all for us for the future. Narrator By 1984, summer solstice celebrations at Ram Das Puri ranch in New Mexico are in full swing. It's been 14 years since Yogi Bhajan first arrived in the US, and 3H0 is now running more than 100 ashrams worldwide. But as its influence grows, so does the need for money to sustain the ashrams and their recruitment drive. Tej We were organized in a certain way where we could create businesses very quickly and the other ashrams around the world, because they have that, you could call it worker bee, but it's a happy worker bee. It wasn't mindless. We started a lot of yoga centers. Toronto's first real health food store. Some of the products are nationally known, like Yogi Tea. Gursant And you've probably seen it. You've seen it before. Yogi Tea. That's their main income producer now. Dharma Yogi Tea was small. So all of a sudden came these big health food stores, and Yogi Tea became the number one herbal tea in the United States in three years. So all of a sudden we're doing a billion dollars, $1.2 billion of business a year. Pamela That was us. That was the people that was the entrepreneurial spirit of all of us. Tej All of the businesses that came out of it, the big one was Akal security. Narrator The security firm that 3HO starts is very lucrative. The US government pays them to defend federal courthouses, embassies, and immigration detention centers. Gursant This was all Akal Security. They had a billion dollars in contracts all over the world. Dharma He had so many cars. These are limousines, cars that he bought. When he would meet the president of the United States, dignitaries, he went in a limousine. Tej Yogi Bhajan was fascinated with wealth. He traveled, and there was always personal luxury around. And it was always, there was always personal luxury around. Most of us were hippies. We loved simplicity. Dharma We worked long hours and made very little money. He called it a spiritual mafia. Tej We were always donating money to him. So he was receiving a tremendous amount of funds for the yoga that he taught personal donations, this property. for the yoga that he taught and personal donations. Dharma This property, he had people who were devoted and took a piece of land that had nothing on it and did this with people who made minimum wage for 40 years Nadine All of his subjects were essentially really poor. I'd say about 90%. And then there was like this 10%. And then there was that upper echelon, the 3%. Or maybe it's just like the rich and the poor for short. I was really little, one or two. My parents were very poor. There was never enough food. Literally my shoes were flip-flops. My mom held several jobs just to make ends meet. Narrator While 3HO parents are working around the clock to barely scrape by, Yogi Bhajan has plans for their children. Yogi Bhajan Do me a favor. Tell everybody, life comes once, and chance to get educated comes once, but dying to just learn to become educated is not enough. But to become learned and to live learned is one chance in whole life. Guru Fatha Yogi Bhajan wanted to establish a school in India where people could send their children. He thought itÕd be better for the children to be there. Tej There was the idea that this would make them strong, it would serve them. Nadine Here I am. I'm this kid, right? I'm living in these squalor situations. So when India came up to me, I'm thinking in my mind, like it's Aladdin from Disney. I'm going to go to India. This is going to be great, Satpavan India was this mystical land, and it was the land of the gurus. Iit was the land of the Sikhs. It was somewhere that I dreamed of being. We were told that we were these old souls. We were in charge of our own destiny. Our generation was the ones that were going to be these leaders. And Yogi Bhajan was going to be the physical person on Earth that would guide me in my spiritual life. And I was 8 years old. When I got to the school, that's when the reality hit that I am not safe. Tej People had so much trust. Looking back on it, what were we thinking? Shabd This is like the neighborhood that I grew up in. Everybody in the neighborhood were from the 3HO community, and there's a lot of dark stuff in the story of the community. But as far as, like, an upbringing, I really do value a lot of what I grew up with. Just -- it's really awful that it was all being run by this total sociopath. Everything in that community absolutely went through the lens of, "Well, you know what Yogi Bhajan said about that." It was really inescapable. True believers of Yogi Bhajan really believed that sending your kids to the schools in India was the absolute best thing that you could do for them, and why would you go against that? Narrator In the 1980s and '90s, at the peak of its powers, 3HO is running four boarding schools across India, aiming to indoctrinate a new generation. Children as young as 2 are separated from their parents and flown to India. Some remain there for a decade, immersed in a curriculum that prioritizes Bhajan's teachings over math and reading. Shabd Every day, youÕre going to be doing Kundalini yoga and meditation and be learning Yogi Bhajan's teachings. True believers of Yogi Bhajan were sent to the school to administer the school. When I was there, it was very military-style, extremely rigid. There was an extreme devotion to Yogi Bhajan as a sort of superman of some kind. Nadine It wasn't even human. He was basically God. I was 6, 7, and 8 at the time. We always had to work hard, we always had to clean, and we were always put in very tough physical situations, I felt. And if we complained, we were weak, we were the "problem" child, so you just learned to keep your mouth shut all the time. Shabd It was a battle of survival. We were in a constant risk of corporal punishment from the teachers, and it was a brutal, brutal place. Satpavan I was beaten by teachers, and there was a time where the girls in our dorm were caned every single morning. My parents couldn't afford to bring me home. So, I went over at 8. I didn't see my parents until I was 11. One of the things that was really hard for me to admit to was how I tried to commit suicide twice.I felt alone, and I didn't have parents to mediate or hug me or make sure I was okay. And so I felt like, you know, I have to get their attention by ending my life. Tej He had thousands and thousands of people trusting him. Oh, yeah, you all start sending your kids to India. These kids will be enlightened. It will be wonderful. All bullshit. It was power. I sent my son away when he was 2 at the bequest of Yogi Bhajan. We went to pick him up and he didn't recognize us. Pure, pure child abuse. Sending my kids to India... that's a rough one. And I'm working on it. IÕm working on it. Shabd There was tremendous social pressure. People were sort of looked down upon who didn't send their kids to the boarding schools as lacking a certain amount of faith in the program. I do think that the schools were created to make willing servants out of the children of the people of this community. The parents could work harder for the businesses, work harder for the non-profits, just be more in the hands of the guru. He was the final say on everything, and he wanted it to stay that way. We all bought into a philosophy that really sort of diminished the importance of familial bonds and made it kind of more easy and acceptable to send your kid all the way around the world to a crappy institution. And it's something I've been dealing with for my whole life, I think, because of that. Nadine Yogi Bhajan separated children from their parents, really so that we'd be reliant on the religion. But I think his ultimate goal was that we were reliant on him telling us what to do. We were being groomed to obey everything he said. So off we went to whichever place he told us to go to. Tej When some of these kids came back, there wasn't the encouragement to go to college. Particularly some of the young women, they were encouraged to join his staff. Satpavan In March of 1991, when I was 16, I got back from India, and then one of the staff members called my parents and said that he wanted me to come out to New Mexico and be with him. Nadine Right around my 18th birthday, I was applying to colleges. I was told, "Yogi Bhajan wants you to put off college for a year and work at the Secretariat." And of course, this was considered an honor. I absolutely did not want to do it. I wanted to go to college, but I did it because my parents thought this was a great idea, and if you decided you didn't want to be with him, Yogi Bhajan, or part of whatever he told you to do, you were excommunicated, essentially, even if you kept your turban on. I was around a lot of the secretaries. There was just this gaggle of women around Yogi Bhajan all the time. They seemed like so happy to be around him and do whatever he wanted. Pamela He created his whole circle of staff members that would go on different trips with him. We had to Joe, serve him, be with him, practice, perfect surrender and give up any autonomy. I began to take care of him at night physically, you know, massaging him. If you were being his attendant for nighttime duty, you did not get much sleep. Nadine I was being taught how to take care of him at night. I was absolutely being groomed to be one of his concubines, 100%. [Q: Did he ever try to sexually assault you?] He did. Narrator Every summer, women from the 3HO community gather in New Mexico for Yogi Bhajan's summer camp. The intention of the camp, he says, is to provide them with purity of thought. Yogi Bhajan Charming, sexy. Look at them. Seduce them. Nadine We were sent to a camp every summer for about six weeks, where he would try to give us lectures on how to be a good wife or a good woman. Our only worth was either a happy husband or a happy yogi, but essentially it was six weeks of berating and making sure those women were subservient. Yogi Bhajan's abuse towards me started as soon as I was around him and his entourage. It turns out the secretaries are really just a harem of women at his disposal to either groom girls for him or be part of his bed. Really, night duty and cleaning his house, those were all things to get you ready to be in his bedroom. Pamela For a number of years, he was claiming celibacy. He didn't initiate sexual contact with me for a few months. And by the time he did, I had hunkered down into the programming, and it was okay because he was the teacher and he was the one determining my life. But I learned that he had named me publicly in a way I did not ever know about. Premka, it's a name that actually any Punjabi would know meant like a mistress. He claimed to have an exclusive relationship with me for eight years out of my 16 years, until I found out he was having sexual relations with other women at the time. From the standpoint of the power dynamic, anyone that he was with was rape. Nobody feels they have much choice in the situation. You know, he's the one in control. Yogi Bhajan ThereÕs a last point I want to discuss with you, and that is about rape. Rape is always invited. It never happens. A person who is raped is always providing subconsciously the environments and the arrangements. If you do not provide the circumstances and the arrangements it is impossible. Pamela Rape can't happen unless a woman invites it. There is no way that a woman can be raped. I mean, what an absurdity. Anyway, how do I feel about that? I feel like he was covering himself. Nadine I was cleaning the house and he said, "Turn around for me," which I have subsequently learned was a common thing he did with people. And he touched my boobs, as I finished turning around. I remember, it was almost like sizing me up. And then he said, "You're turning out nicely." You know, like I'm getting ready for him, essentially. Satpavan I was doing dishes, and he came up from behind me, and he grabbed my chest, and he just kind of said, "I'm just telling you to stand up straight and have a good posture." And he put his hands on my chest, and he said, "Be proud of these." He gave me a wedding ring, called me his wife, said I was his youngest wife. I was his most innocent wife, I was his virgin wife, called me the Virgin Queen. Called me the Virgin Queen. Nadine And he starts yelling at me about not being a virgin. I essentially think he wanted to make sure I was a virgin so he could break me. Satpavan He would force me to come watch pornography with him. He then said to me the next time he saw me, 33:29 "Come get in bed with me." And he didn't stop asking me. And he changed it into, "You need to learn how to kiss. Come make out with me." And I just got more and more aware of that I was in danger. Nadine I was freaked. And I just wanted to get out of there. There was no one else there. I was so scared. The adrenaline was rushing, and I walked to that door, and I was like, "I'm never going back." I think that if I had stayed, the abuse would have never ended. Satpavan I'm not turning around. I am not going to give him a kiss. I am not going to get into bed. Looked at that door, and I was just in my mind thinking, "I need to get out of here." Walked over to the bed, and he reached for me, and my whole body just froze. My hands were shaking. I think he might have seen that I was crying. And then he just brought my face close to him and kissed me on my forehead. And I walked out of that room, and I felt, "I will not tell anyone this," because I didn't want to hurt the community. And I thought that I was the only one, and I thought it was worth holding it in so that no one else would hate him. Narrator Silently, many women in 3HO are suffering grievous abuse behind the scenes. Meanwhile, their venerated guru was meeting Pope John Paul II to discuss world unity. The '90s are jet-set years for Yogi Bhajan. When he's not entertaining dignitaries in his ashram, he's advising governors and meeting with the rich and powerful. As the noise around 3HO grows, so do its finances. And Yogi Bhajan wants it all. Pamela People would open a business, and as soon as the business was halfway successful, he would sweep in, send some of his secretaries from the accounting department, and say, "Oh, we can just take that now." And he would do the same thing with the properties. In the late '80s and '90s, he began to come in and take those properties. And as far as I know, the equity went in his pocket. Gursant I think a lot of the money went towards buying extravagant gifts for Yogi Bhajan. I remember giving him envelopes full of cash. He would take it, and then he would say, "Oh, put it by my altar," and he'd pretend that he was meditating on it. Tej The scale of Yogi Bhajan's corruption 37:14 in some way matches the scale of how big the organization grew. The depth of corruption was on so many different levels. Yogi Bhajan was a huge swindler, amassed huge amounts of money, and he also was actually a rapist. The amount of abuse that he was carrying on. Nadine There are so many people who'd set a lot of this abuse in motion. I never warned anybody about what happened. I knew I wouldn't be believed. Things never changed. Pamela After 16 years, I chose to leave. Literally, I'm sure there's at least 100 women that he assaulted. There are many who will never speak up because he kept it covered, and people were terrified. If you listen to any negativity about the teacher, it will pollute your spiritual destiny, and you will fall. You will fall from grace. You will fall. Narrator Whenever allegations emerged about his behavior, Yogi Bhajan returned fire. And to this day, he has many who are prepared to defend him, even in the face of overwhelming evidence. Dharma I was raped. I was this. I was that. Wow. I don't believe it. They're barking dogs. They're barking at the master. Instead of going on with their life, they need to slander him. When you see them on this thing, look at their faces. See if you think they're lying. I've looked. I have my conclusion. He was celibate. He had diabetes. It wasn't possible. And they imagined it. Read his lectures, watch his tapes, research it. What can I tell you? You can believe me, not believe me. This isn't a cult. Narrator In 2004, after a long battle with diabetes and heart disease, Yogi Bhajan dies at his home in Espa–ola at the age of 75. (Congress) Honoring the life and contributions of Yogi Bhajan, a leader of Sikhs, and expressing condolences to the Sikh community on his passing. Congress hails him as the king of spirituality. And recognize his legendary compassion, wisdom, kindness, and courage. But to many, his death means he'll never face justice. Satpavan The amount of women that he did this to and the level of abuse. He sent us to the schools. He sent us to the camps. We were told to call him our grandfather. And the fact that we were just sexual beings for his taking is so infuriating and so hard, and it's like, I'm furious, I'm hurt. This is not the way a Sikh should behave. Narrator In the Kundalini yoga world, there has been an upheaval. -I have been rocked to my core. -How do we move forward with all these allegations? It is only 15 years after the death of Yogi Bhajan that the allegations against him finally gain traction. Because of her memoir claiming sexual abuse, "My Life with Yogi Bhajan" by Pamela Saharah Dyson. Pamela I needed to tell my story to help liberate so many of the women who were abused by him and who never spoke until my book came out. Narrator Pamela Dyson's memoir exposes the abuse she suffered at the hands of Yogi Bhajan. Its release prompts many more victims to come forward. Satpavan This is the first time I'm speaking out on a public level. Nadine We're all talking about it. For the first time in my life after 30 years, I'm believed. Narrator With 3HO's secrets now in the spotlight, an independent investigation launched by 3HO reveals that at least 25 allegations of sexual abuse are most likely true. But Yogi Bhajan's most ardent followers remain unconvinced, opening a rift among the believers. Guru Fatha He didn't like this kind of nonsense, kind of abuse. He didn't tolerate it. And now that people are whining and crying and trying to make a case that he was an abuser, it's a gross misrepresentation, by my view. Pamela The side of Yogi Bhajan that was so charismatic and embraced us felt very, very real. And those people who are still believing in that, it's all they know. They can't understand this other aspect of him. Guru Fatha Pamela Dyson, you know, I'm aware of her allegations. She did an excellent slander campaign, but it's not truthful and has no basis in fact, as far as I can tell. Nadine It's been a little bit hard for me because while I'm so grateful that the book came out, if it had just been Pamela and nobody else had said anything, nothing would have changed because she had no credibility in that community. Nobody believed her. Her role, to me, was setting up a lot of the infrastructures of what 3HO is now. I am 100% a believer that 3HO is a cult. Pamela [Q: Do you ever worry that you helped facilitate building that cult?] Yes, I do. However, I was as gullible and manipulated as everyone. And I know that's hard for some people to see because, especially, I think, from the eyes of the second generation, who would see me as Premka the secretary-general, and that was an illusion. He would tell me that I had no other destiny, kept me locked, not looking for or hoping for anything else. I didn't ever expect that I would become pregnant. I just thought that he could control that. A lot of the belief that we held, I thought that he had superior capacity, and he immediately just brushed it off, "Don't worry, I'll take care of it. We'll have it cleaned out," was his terminology, when we get to India. The abortion was performed in a small, little clinic, hole-in-the-wall place, which nearly killed me. Gursant I made a really difficult choice to leave all of the friends, all of the family that I had in 3HO. I'd like to reconciliate with the people, and I'm definitely open to working with them and staying here. Nadine I do think there are healthy things about 3HO, and that's living a clean lifestyle. I really do believe that. Exercise, in terms of yoga or whatever it is, and being clear in your mind in meditation. I don't think you can have true happiness if you can't make your own choices. However, I always felt an urge to still do yoga and meditation, albeit not Kundalini, and I still find myself reaching out to people I grew up with. Shabd I don't think it ends with him just because he's dead. The structure is what compels the behavior and keeps it cycling on through time, and that continued on after him. Tej In the long run, I don't think 3HO as an organization will survive unless they're truthful. They have to start reporting sexual abusers, not hiding things. They have to actually be honest with themselves and not hold any person up on a pedestal ever again. Gursant There's been many, many accounts of the sexual abuse by Yogi Bhajan. If I had known, boy, I would have... I probably would have shot Yogi Bhajan, to be honest with you. This is the original Kundalini yoga asana manual. I practiced this one meditation. You're supposed to be able to see auras when you practiced it, he said for 40 days. But I never was able to see auras. And I don't really think that it increased my aura, either.